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I know enough people who are clinically depressed to know that depression, true depression, is sometimes not a choice. And I know enough women to know that hormones really do affect the way you feel and how you react to things. Not to mention how a full moon can make people a little loopy. (Just ask my hubby what happens to me on a full moon. But that’s another post… :-) )
Having said all that, I’ve felt for a long time that for most people there’s a moment in your day where you make a conscience decision whether to be cheerful or not. But sometimes you have days like today. Sometimes you just feel like wallowing in it. Taking a walk outside and letting yourself feel blah. Sometimes it feels good to just let yourself feel sad for no reason in particular. Not be ‘on’ for people just because they feel more comfortable when you are. A smile for everyone who walks by. I just didn’t feel like it today. Stuck my headphones on. No smiles. No chatting with coworkers. And it felt pretty good. Guess I’ll work on being ‘on’ tomorrow.
There are times that I welcome the "blah" days…today is one of them. It seems it’s on the blah days that my brain is calm, and still. Not traveling a dozen directions at once, putting the performance of a computer to shame. Its on those days I veg. out on the couch and give my body much needed rest. Its on those days that my face gets a needed rest from the "required" smile that is usually pasted on it. Welcome into my arms blahhhh
lol
There’s this comic Jim Borgman drew of a dude standing by his front door holding a just-delivered box of little round things labeled "blahs" and he looks really sad, and his wife is in the background saying, "don’t worry, walter, everyone gets a case of the blahs this time of year."
Thought of that when I read this post.
How did the haircut turn out?
J
I welcome those days! To me, its a day that I don’t have to go in 5 different directions at work, and I really don’t give a crap at home so nothing gets done there either. by the way, I am going to the gym tomorrow after work ( around 5:45).