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I know enough people who are clinically depressed to know that depression, true depression, is sometimes not a choice. And I know enough women to know that hormones really do affect the way you feel and how you react to things. Not to mention how a full moon can make people a little loopy. (Just ask my hubby what happens to me on a full moon. But that’s another post… :-) )
Having said all that, I’ve felt for a long time that for most people there’s a moment in your day where you make a conscience decision whether to be cheerful or not. But sometimes you have days like today. Sometimes you just feel like wallowing in it. Taking a walk outside and letting yourself feel blah. Sometimes it feels good to just let yourself feel sad for no reason in particular. Not be ‘on’ for people just because they feel more comfortable when you are. A smile for everyone who walks by. I just didn’t feel like it today. Stuck my headphones on. No smiles. No chatting with coworkers. And it felt pretty good. Guess I’ll work on being ‘on’ tomorrow.
